Crazy thoughts on Brokenheartedness

What does it feel to be brokenhearted? Too painful, isn't it?

Now, why on earth am I writing about this. I'm not brokenhearted right now. Just a little anxious and weary.

But what are the different ways of getting a brokenheart?

[A normal person tends to count ways on how to avoid a brokenheart. I knew it! I'm really crazy. I just hope no one will read this blog. This should be called a crazy blog. My other blog served as my personal diary while this one became an outlet of my spontaneous crazy thoughts. Poor person who will spend his/her time reading this. I just can't imagine. Sigh!]

1. How does it feel to love someone who doesn't love you back?

--It's very stressful! I've felt it! Loving someone like this will make you look crazy and martyr in front of your friends. You will also look so desperate especially when you can't find the right reason to defend yourself. This type of love will also measure your patience and determination in such a way that you always but to give up but you can't. It's very crazy to think that I'm in such situation right now. I'm still thinking and going over those advices my brother and friends gave me. And sometimes, they all make sense to the point that I started accepting their point and giving up my inordinate notions. And the most painful thing here is that when your own friends tell you to quit instead of motivating you. They may say they just care but what hurts the most is that they don't understand you. Or maybe you're just bein foolish of the impossible idea that he'll love you back. Crazy, isn't it?

I suggest, you think of this very carefully. Don't just think twice or thrice but think in a million times. You won't know the end of this but you surely have the choice of how to end it. It's either you give up and move on or you will stick and suffer the consequences. Anyhow, you think.


2. How does it feel to be torn?

--There will also be times that you'll get torn by two people. And believe me, it's a very very very crazy time to think. It's like as if your world will go up side down, mooning over which to choose. This guy or this guy. Helpless.

But what I advice you to do is that forget the both of them and move on with your life. It's not worth thinking anyway. And you'll still find more of them. Focus on your studies and have a new hobby. Busy yourself with anything interesting just to forget them. Crazy indeed!


3. He loves you..You like him..Does that jive?

--A crazy situation! He loves you so much but you just like him. How is that possible? Of course it is possible. It's just that both of you weren't in one path. He was on this path and you were on that other path. He took the love path and you took the like path. Then how will you meet? Toinks!

In this situation, better talk to him seriously and say that you only like him. In that way, he won't misunderstood any of your action which will make your relationship better. Agree?


4. Just mutual understanding...

--This is one of the craziest situation ever! You both think you're in love but with no formal agreement. You meet each other, talk to each other, and even wink and blush. Oh no! But you can't be sure if what he's showing you is real or just a playful act. After all, you have no commitment or any formal agreement. You have no right of each other's business even though you have this mutual understanding. But it's just mutual. You share this common things you have and enjoy each other's company. In other words, friends with benefit...

Hmm..What I say is that just go on..But don't let yourself fall into the pit or you might end up in tears. Just go on with the flow but be sure to be within your boundary. And don't forget to watch out!


5. First love never dies...

--It's quite true especially when you come along with this situation. A first love will always be your first. Unforgettable. And can leave a deep scar of memory in you. Your first love will really stay in you. Because it was the first time you fell in love, the first time you cry and the first time you felt the stinging taste of love.

But behold! Don't let your first love stop you from loving again. You still have the second love, the third love and so on. Also, the true love is the most important one. Because it'll be the one. But not necessarily the last. Crazy of me! Haha.



[Sadly, I experienced all of these. Pretty weird for me because I never had a boyfriend but I experienced things that are more than a girl in a relationship should experience. I was even muttering to my classmate (Jessa), that my high school life is incomplete because I never had a boyfriend. But when she heard my love stories, she even exclaimed that mine was more than complete. Whoah!

Honestly, I'm still proud of being a member of the NO BOYFRIEND SINCE BIRTH SOCIETY. (wink!) And I'm very determined to keep it that way. To be single till the day I get married. Of course, to the man I that I will love in the future. Hopefully there's someone out there for me. But I don't fret. I still have many things to think about now.]


Hahaha..I wrote something longer today! An achievementt for me! I have overcome my laziness! =)

STUPIDITY

Issh!!..How can I be so stupid?!
My brother's right. I'm so stupid.
Still the careless stupid girl of 4 years ago.

Ughh! I hate this! How can I even fool myself?!

I'm really a loser when it comes to situation like this. Good at counseling other people but poor when counseling ones self. I hate it! Issh!

But when can I do? What's done is done. I need to keep up with it. Or shall I burst out? Here I go again. Careless stupid girl!

All I have to do is wait. Yeah. That's it. Be patient. Time will do everything. And believe in fate. It will be fate.

Pray also.