It was really a "DAY"

November 29, 2008

First thing, we set up this date for us (me and my classmates) to watch the movie "Twilight". Then when we were at the mall already, Kathreena decided to cancel it since we were already late for the 2nd showing. And we blame the guys for the tardiness.

It did upset me but a sudden hope came when someone suggested that we can watch the third show at 5:30pm. Some classmates doubt it since the end of that third showing will be around 7:30 pm and that's pretty late for them. But in the end, we pursued our desire.

The movie was good. But not satisfying. I wonder why. Hmm.. Maybe because I was expecting much from it since it is one of the most anticipated and most-awaited movie.

Anyways, as we took our way in going home, some street girl was pulling the plastic I was carrying. She was asking for it or maybe if we can give even 2php to her. I thought of it as a very impolite pursuit. She was very demanding. And most of all, she was touching us. Not that I think of them as dirty, but it's very unlikely to feel some stranger's hand in your arms. Then because of the girl's pursuasion, I called out to Zain to ask some help in getting rid of that girl. But it seems that he went away and looking scared too. I was flabbergasted by his cowardice. He really is a coward! No denying. Good thing, Jash was there. It was an unexpected thing for someone like him whom I consider as a GAY. He protected us by hindering the path of the girl saying "NO MONEY". He also put his arm around me for protection. I really appreciated and admired his act. Though, I hadn't thanked him formally, but deep inside, I'm very grateful.

On my way home, I rode a van. About 200 meters from the parking lot, the van suddenly stopped. I wasn't aware why it stopped but the passengers around me started screaming and making their way out of it.I thought there was some kind of checkpoint or some raid or ambush. Then I started to panick also. Then I got up and made my way out also and while doing this, I saw some smoke coming out of the driver's seat. Then many thoughts provoked me. What if it was a bomb? I was scared at that moment. Really scared. I was even asking myself if that was my last moment. I was even asking Allah if my life will end at that moment. TERRIFYING.

When we were out of the vehicle, the driver said that it was just smoke coming out due to some grounded battery. Then he urged us to ride again but many passengers won't ride because of fear. But made my way back because I really need to get home. It was around 8pm already.

Now, I finally reached home. And there's no place like home. The safest place.

Hate

One of traits I hate in myself is being LAZY!!!

I hate it! So much!

I don't know why but this LAZINESS hinders me in almost everything. Just like in writing my thoughts, I really love to write everything down. But when time comes and this LAZINESS attacks me..then you already know the result.

sigh..

How can I cast this negative attitude? Arrrgghhh...I'm starting to dislike myself...

I miss him so much!

Miss you
Everyday and every night, this feeling I'd fight
Try as I might but I wont win, I surrender, I'd die
You are winning here alright
Every morning when the sun would shine on me
Id flash a smile but deep inside
I feel so sad and lonely
I need you here and now
I miss you
Its crazy to pretend that I don't think of you
The more this feeling just seems to grow and grow
I miss you
Oh how much longer can I hold on to
Maybe you can come and tell me that you miss me too
Miss you
All I want is for this love to last forever
You walked away, never came back, oh I tried to recover
I can't bear it boy alright
When I hear a song that we had used to share
Ill try as I might to hide the tears, and when the pain is over
Ill wish that you are near
I miss you
Its crazy to pretend that I don't think of you
The more this feeling just seems to grow and grow
I miss you
Oh how much longer can I hold on to
Maybe you can come and tell me that you miss me too
Miss you


(A song by MYMP which I love to sing whenever I miss him! You know who you are)

"UNCOMFORTABLE"

The last few days was a disaster! There were many things that happened to us in our class. Not only in our class but deep within our close bonds.

Lately, my classmates were teasing me. It was not a childish thing but something which pierce through my heart. Well, I'm not the kind who get affected easily but those words went deep down my veins. I don't know why. But, it made me think of something else.

I really don't know what I should tell in this thing. I just feel like typing what I want to say. Though, expressing what I feel right now is better when I talk than typing. I don't know whom to talk about this. I have my bestfriends but I can't talk to them about this coz they might misunderstand my point and might take sides also. 

Some things are just meant to be like this. Maybe this was already written in my book of fate. I don't know.

Anyways, I feel terribly sad coz some of my classmates have a great misunderstanding because of this research this. I hate to see them like that. Especially when their Moms are involved. It breaks my heart alot. And they are all my close friends. Though I want to take side, but I can't. Coz I don't like to hurt any of them.

Arrgghhhhh...

I'm so damn tired!

             

The Global Financial Crisis

The global financial crisis has really started to show its effects in the middle of this year. Around the world, stock markets have fallen, large financial institutions have collapsed or been bought out, and governments and even the wealthiest nations have had to come up with rescue packages to bail out their financial systems. Because of these effects, not just the wealthy will suffer, but potentially everyone. 

 Due to these happenings in the West, countries in Asia are increasingly worried. For the developing world, the rise in the cost of food, high fuel prices, and the soaring commodity prices are having a compounding effect.  

 According to some articles, perhaps ironically, African countries will not be affected from the crisis, at least not initially. This is because of Africa’s generally weak integration with the rest of the global economic system. The wealthier ones, who do have some exposure to the rest of the world, however, may face some problems. 

 As for the Latin America, much of its trade depends with United States. As a result, Latin America will also feel the effect of US financial crisis and a slower growth in Latin America is expected.

Many Asian countries, including Philippines, have seen their stock markets suffer and currency values going down. In addition, there is increased foreign investment from West in Asia. Asian products and services are also global, and a slowdown in wealthy countries means increased chances of a slowdown in Asia and the risk of job losses.

  Since Philippines is also attached to US, then it is expected that the financial meltdown will have a great impact in the Philippine economy. Current increases in the prices of oil and food products worsened by the adverse impact of the US meltdown will likely increase the number of poor several times in the coming years. Due to the problems in the West, several OFW’s need to go back to the country to look for job again, becoming jobless. Also, because most investors are from the West, there’ll be lesser investments or maybe decrease that will cause some people to be jobless; thus, there’ll be higher rate of unemployment. In the end, the rich will be blown off while the poor will be the poorest.
 

"Thunder"

Today is a winding road that's taking me to places that I didn't want to go
Whoa (whoa, whoa, whoa)
Today in the blink of an eye I'm holding on to something and I do not know why
I tried

I tried to read between the lines
I tried to look in your eyes
I want a simple explanation
For what I'm feeling inside
I gotta find a way out
Maybe there's a way out

Your voice was the soundtrack of my summer
Do you know you're unlike any other?
You'll always be my thunder, and I said
Your eyes are the brightest of all the colors
I don't wanna ever love another
You'll always be my thunder
So bring on the rain
And bring on the thunder

Today is a winding road
Tell me where to start and tell me something I don't know
Whoa (whoa, whoa, whoa)
Today I'm on my own
I can't move a muscle and I can't pick up the phone
I don't know (I don't know, I don't know, I don't know)

And now I'm itching for the tall grass
And longing for the breeze
I need to step outside
Just to see if I can breathe
I gotta find a way out
Maybe there's a way out

Your voice was the soundtrack of my summer
Do you know you're unlike any other?
You'll always be my thunder, and I said
Your eyes are the brightest of all the colors
I don't wanna ever love another
You'll always be my thunder
So bring on the rain

Yeah I'm walking on a tightrope
I'm wrapped up in vines
I think we'll make it out
But you just gotta give me time
Strike me down with lightning
Let me feel you in my veins
I wanna let you know how much I feel your pain

Today is a winding road that's taking me to places that I didn't want to go
Whoa

Your voice was the soundtrack of my summer
Do you know you're unlike any other?
You'll always be my thunder, and I said
Your eyes are the brightest of all the colors
I don't wanna ever love another
You'll always be my thunder
And bring on the thunder, and I said
Your voice was the soundtrack of my summer
Do you know you're unlike any other?
You'll always be my thunder
So bring on the rain
Oh baby bring on the pain
And listen to the thunder

This is an alternative song by the international band Boys Like Girls. I really love the message of this song!!! This is for you!

If I Keep My Heart Out Of Sight

If I keep on talking now
I'll only start repeating myself
And all I can say is
I love you
I love you
I love you
I love you

If I slip and tip my hand
I'm certain to scare you away
Then what would I say
I'd be hurting I'm certain
I'd be uncool to let you know that you're the one
The fool who jumped the gun

'cause I've been advised by other guys
You've left behind
Your goodbyes are somewhat unrefined
But if I play my role just right
Tonight could be my lucky night
And you could be mine

If I present it to you
With a flower in the moonlight
Shiny and new
Well, you couldn't say no tonight
If I keep my heart out of sight

If I play my role just right
Then tonight could be my lucky night
And you could be mine

If I present it to you
With a flower in the moonlight
Oh, shiny and new
Well, you couldn't say no tonight
If I keep my heart out of sight

This is a song by James Taylor. I always listen to this song coz I can imagine myself in this song. It might look like I'm the desperate one. Well, it's true. I'm in love. And I do love him. =))